Let it go

      I find myself getting happier everyday. I know that by ridding all of these bad toxins out of my life and out of my body I will be able to be a happier person, not only with myself but with others. The hardest thing about finding out who you really are is letting go of who you thought you were. You find some things aren't as important as they might have seemed and that some things you never thought you would use, you use every day. Growing up is hard and living in a world where people see you caught in between this adulthood and teenage stage is harder. People will continually look down on you and continually believe you can't do things and I think that's when you really need to look at yourself and realize you can do whatever it is you want to set your mind to. 
        Just recently I've set my mind to wanting to become a better person. I've realized I've done a lot of things wrong, but also a lot of things right. There's many things I might have done differently if I knew who I'd be today but then again I wouldn't know I was gonna be this way without all the mistakes I've made. I'm glad I have made mistakes and was able to learn from them. I swear I did some of the dumbest things when I was in High School and I sometimes wonder how I came out without a scratch. You're meant to have fun and make mistakes you're meant to find the wrong guys before you find the right one. There's not really any specific guide to follow to find the person you want to be you have to find you need to make your own. 
         Make your own rules and find that sometimes you have might even have to break those to come out on top and to come out being the best person you can be. I am excited that I've started this journey of finding a better mental and physical me because I know once I get to where I want to be nothing will stop me from becoming an even better me and as cliche as that might all sound I know it's true. I've never wanted to believe in something more. I always thought I believed in love more than anything in this world. I thought love change anything, but now I know if you truly want something to change in your life it has to start with you. Not you and someone else because you can't rely on someone else to change the way you want to be. If you want to change you will find a will and a way. 
        I know this journey is going to be one of the hardest things I have ever done and I know that I will want to quit and give up but I can't. I can't let myself down and it's all about me. For the next, well however long it takes, I am going to be 110% committed to myself because I need to be. I need to show people that I care for my body and my well-being and then maybe I can care for someone else's too. I can't wait to see what happens when all this is said and done but I'll be sure to hopefully talk about it here. Even though all of these will be very random.