Realization

At some point you have to realize what you do for you, is for you. Stop trying to please other people. I'm so sick of pleasing others... It's all I've ever done. I need to make myself happy.. I know I probably sound like a broken record, but I think it's better to remind myself that I need to look out for me and only me. There aren't many things I used to do for myself because I was too worried about how it would effect someone around me. 
Well, not anymore. I can't wait to prove to people what I can do and what I can put my mind to. It's amazing the fuel you can gain for yourself when you have people telling you that you can't do something. 
There are so many different types of ways to get yourself motivated. Apparently for me it was people telling me I can't or that I won't make it that long. Well I have news for all you bitches, be prepared because I will find a way to prove you wrong. It's going to take awhile but god damn I will do it and I will do it with the biggest fucking smile on my face. Even though it has taken me time to realize I actually do wish to accomplish this goal, I'm okay with that. It will take awhile and it will be hard but I'm going to work at it everyday because it's my life and there's no way I'm letting anyone get in the way of it. I just need to always remember that it is about me and what I need to do for myself... Me, myself & I is all that matters for the next year. FOCUS.